"We simply cannot maintain wholeness if we talk and walk differently than we see"
This morning I was woken by a dream. In this dream I was at a family BBQ, everyone was running around getting everything prepared. I was sitting in a lawn chair talking to a man we were observing the activities of everything going on. He leans over to me and looks at his wife and said "She was my world, my everything. She just didn't know it. There came a day whey I had to choose, I could either start showing her or lose her forever. I choose to show her, I'm sad it took me so long and I wasted so much time."
This week I have realized there are others that need me more than I realized, I am a mother everyday but this week I realized that I must be a mom more and push everything else aside. I am sad that I have wasted so much time not really being there for my children. I was there but more as a friend instead of a mom. I choose to walk and talk differently than my divine roll as a mom. I'm not perfect and my children will be the first to agree.
I have to wonder the significance of that dream for the man is now in heaven. Why would I have been so moved by his comment? My heart was racing when I woke from this dream. How many people in our lives have we not shown up for and we are just wasting precious time that we will never get back?
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
This is one of my favorite pictures by Greg Olsen. I love the tenderness between the Young Woman and the Savior. How many times have we been in this position as the Young Woman. Kneeling at the Saviors feet asking for forgiveness and for the tender mercies of his love.
Are not the words of Abraham Lincoln beautiful which he spoke out of the tragedy of a terrible civil war: “With malice toward none, with charity for all, … let us … bind up the … wounds.” (In John Bartlett, Familiar Quotations, Boston: Little, Brown & Co., 1968, p. 640.)
"Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time."